Expanding Into Holiness

“When external structures fall apart, internal structure becomes essential for your integrity and well-being.” (Hiro Boga)

You deserve wild-caught shrimp

None of that fake farmed stuff for you

“You deserve it, and more,” she said.

I didn’t quite believe her.

I marvel at the spa appointment I made

For later this morning

I told very few people

As if they would somehow say

Who are you to cherish yourself

You are not crushing it,

This life of yours

And your biggest accomplishment thus far

Is keeping your sanity intact

This week, anyway

My daily devotional quietly asserted

I am holy

And that sacredness infuses the life

I am blessed to live

In all its imperfect glory

Whether I am crushing it or not

I am keeping my appointment

Despite the inner questions that surface

About the requisite level of deserving

I am not sure I possess

The nurturing I require

Is necessary

To embody

To further evolve into a healing force in the world

That’s more than deserving

When I see myself

I am seen

And I can then see others

When I care for myself

I am cared for

And I can then care for others

None of that fake farmed stuff for you, chica

For the place you are standing

Is indeed holy

So inhabit it without reservation

And await your Instructions

Exodus 3:5

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Hi! I’m Idara, and I support mid-career women lawyers who are quietly questioning re-define success on their own terms.